Right - I am going to try to put a positive spin on this and not be down about it, but sometimes it is just best to know when something is not going to happen. The craft fair I mean. It looks like it is a no goer. For various reason's unfortunately. The car is not running very well and I just can't do a 2 hour drive each way to Manchester whilst worrying about if I am going to get lost or not as well as whether the car will make the journey. Public transport won't get me there till way after the fair starts and petrol and a day's parking fees just will not make it worth it. Also there is my back - a 2 hour drive each way plus 7 hours at a stall - it's just too much.
Baah - what can I say, I am gutted but I also have to be realistic. As I have gotten older I have learned more to quit while you are ahead when something looks like it might not work and refocus my energies elsewhere. Not easy to do but financially, physically and practically it just doesn't seem worth it.
So now for the positives
I have lots of new stock for my accessories shop - so I will be able to photograph and list that over the weekend and list a few things each day to keep my shop visible on etsy.
I can really knuckle down to get prepared for the date for the December fair which I am still planning on doing. It is on a saturday so I can get the train - which actually works out at half the price it would have cost me for petrol and parking. It's only a few weeks away so I can really work over the next month to plan my table; get a good inventory; and print up all the things like business cards; christmas cards and work on my shop brand. All these things will help my confidence and make it much more enjoyable knowing I have planned well rather than trying to get a whole stall of stock ready in less than a week (which is what I have been trying to do this week).
We are having friends over for dinner tomorrow night. I would have been working all day tomorrow getting ready for Sunday - poor Mark would have been lumbered with all the cleaning and cooking and I would have had to be up at around 6am on Sunday morning. We don't socialise nearly enough and I really need to learn when to stop working and take time out to spend with Mark and my friends.
I can have a lie in on Sunday!
I get to tidy the house, set the table and pretend to help Mark cook tomorrow night! (When I say 'help cook' this actually means chatting away, being a distraction and generally getting in the way) Actually I am on desert duty. Warming apple crumble I think. Oh and I am on fire lighting duty.
We are going to go to the local farm shop tomorrow to get a few wee treats for dinner - it will almost be like a proper day out!
So there we go. One half of me feels like I am admitting defeat, the other half knows with all certainty that I am doing the right thing. I don't trust the car or my spine and I don't trust my sense of direction and that is that. All I know is that after discussing it all with Mark (who has noticed I have been more than a little anxious about Sunday) I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders.
Next week - well I can't tell you how excited I am about next week. For the first time in what seems like months (since the summer really) I have no current costume work apart from a couple of party dresses to adjust for a customer. So all that I have to do is get down to my studio and work, work, work. So many things have been getting in the way of that recently and it has been sapping my energy. On one hand it is a little worrying - I mean exactly how am I going to pay the rent next month? But on the other - this time has been a long time coming.
I can't wait.
Mmm day 2 of my 'blog every day for November' seems to be going well. Apologies for another day of no photos - there will be some over the weekend I promise.
Films watched today whilst creating - The hours (plus DVD extra's) - bliss.